Shame

The last couple days I've fallen off the wagon- already! I'm such an all or nothing person, it's hard to keep motivated to stay on a meal plan that should only have me losing about a pound per month. I know that's the healthy way to go in order not to yo-yo, and I'm glad that I'm eating enough to be full all the time. At the same time, I want to see results and see them now.
Yesterday I had a difficult therapy session. Nothing in particular went wrong, but I just feel like I've plateaued. Afterwards, I needed to go for some groceries, and instead of getting something healthy, I bought some chips and dip as well as some skittles. I told myself that I'd get on a better track today, but after waking up too late to go on my morning run, I ended up eating the rest of the junk food and then taking a nap.
I do feel ashamed, but I'm trying to step out of old patterns. For a lot of us, we set a goal, break it, feel guilty, and then give up on the goal. I want instead just to make tomorrow a fresh start. Quitting smoking often takes several attempts, so maybe for me, getting onto the healthy eating and exercising track is going to take more than one try.
In college, I weighed 125lbs; now I weight 140. My goal is to get down to 130, as I think that's a healthy adult weight for me.
My other goal is to run a half marathon in the spring and a full marathon next fall.
I want to achieve those goals, so tomorrow I'm going to get up and try again.